It Rained and It Poured...

Last night we got some very much needed rain. It was getting really terrible around Atlanta - the trees are changing colors, but the undergrowth and bushes were starving for water. Everything has been so terribly wilted. I was very happy to be sitting in the new glider, in what will be the baby's bedroom. I could hear the soft sound of rain coming down outside. It was very peaceful indeed.

Today however, it poured... In a metephorical sense that is...

I lost my job today - laid off - 6 months pregnant and laid off.

I was sitting in the HR rep's office, listening to the details of how my employment would be impacted, severence, employment assistance, etc. All I could think was, "What about my baby? What is going to happen to my ability to provide for my baby?", over in my head.

There is so much we are going to need over the next few months... How will we pay for it all? Diapers, baby gear, car seat, etc it is all so expensive. I'm really worried about it... I don't think you HAVE to have all this stuff, but I know that the expenses of caring for baby can be enormous.

The reality is that we will make it work. We will find a way if it is possible. I realize the truth of it, even while I am depressed at the idea of needing to look for a job right now.

On the bright side, I am technically employed for another month, while I try to find another job within the company. They give us this time to try and get into another position (it is a very large company), and if after that month you can't find something you get your severence.

This being the case, I am trying with all my heart to focus on finding another place within the company. I find there have been moments today where I am upbeat and looking to the future and other where I just want to lay down and cry. So far the "proactive" me has won out. I figure my best shot is to be in the game - getting my resume out there. It is the only chance I stand of winning.

Hope all is well with you all out there in the blog-o-verse.