Thursday, November 15, 2007

It Rained and It Poured...

Last night we got some very much needed rain. It was getting really terrible around Atlanta - the trees are changing colors, but the undergrowth and bushes were starving for water. Everything has been so terribly wilted. I was very happy to be sitting in the new glider, in what will be the baby's bedroom. I could hear the soft sound of rain coming down outside. It was very peaceful indeed.

Today however, it poured... In a metephorical sense that is...

I lost my job today - laid off - 6 months pregnant and laid off.

I was sitting in the HR rep's office, listening to the details of how my employment would be impacted, severence, employment assistance, etc. All I could think was, "What about my baby? What is going to happen to my ability to provide for my baby?", over in my head.

There is so much we are going to need over the next few months... How will we pay for it all? Diapers, baby gear, car seat, etc it is all so expensive. I'm really worried about it... I don't think you HAVE to have all this stuff, but I know that the expenses of caring for baby can be enormous.

The reality is that we will make it work. We will find a way if it is possible. I realize the truth of it, even while I am depressed at the idea of needing to look for a job right now.

On the bright side, I am technically employed for another month, while I try to find another job within the company. They give us this time to try and get into another position (it is a very large company), and if after that month you can't find something you get your severence.

This being the case, I am trying with all my heart to focus on finding another place within the company. I find there have been moments today where I am upbeat and looking to the future and other where I just want to lay down and cry. So far the "proactive" me has won out. I figure my best shot is to be in the game - getting my resume out there. It is the only chance I stand of winning.

Hope all is well with you all out there in the blog-o-verse.

11 comments:

Susan said...

That's a fine how do you do. I'm sorry! That just sucks. I wish you luck on finding a new job. When one door shuts another one (or a window) opens. I wish this for you.

Brandy said...

That's awful!! I'm so sorry you're going through something like this right now. I will be praying that you find something that's just right for you before you ever have to worry about severance. Good luck!!

Stacie said...

I am so sorry! That is aweful! I am hoping you find something you like even better in the month to come!

And you're right, your baby doesn't need all of the bells and whistles...he/she just needs you!

Samantha said...

I'm sorry you lost your job. I hope something will work out in the company. Talk about stress!

Kate said...

I am so sorry! I hope you can find somethingin the company!

JJ said...

I am so sorry! I do hope that you will find something very soon--hopefully within the same company!

mary ellen said...

I am so sorry sweetie. I hope that you find something soon. Hugs.

CAM said...

Ugh...that just sucks. The most important thing is that little baby who needs you. So, do your best to keep yourself positive and know that things have a way of working themselves out. It will be ok...smile.
:)

Kim said...

I'm sorry :O(. But ya know, things have a way of working themselves out. I have a feeling that you'll find an even better job... who wouldn't want you? You're smart, quick, and strong. So strong. You'll get through this.

Shelby said...

Yikes- I'm so sorry to hear about your job! I can't imagine how much stress this adds. Hopefully you'll be able to find something within the company quickly! Good luck!

Mands said...

Oh Dawn, that is really shameless of your boss. I hope you find another job soon, and maybe it will be a welcome change for you.