9pt5dt - Still in the Pink!

I tested in the middle of the day today - the test came back positive almost immediately, so I guess the emby(ies) is/are getting stronger.

I talked with my best girlfriend who just had twins - she's over the moon excited for me. She's said she'll hope for just 1 for us, but she didn't say she "feels" like there is just 1. She and I tend to be pretty connected, and she makes lots of predictions... I'm guessing she isn't telling me how she really feels. :)

Jim is having a great time visiting with his Nana and PatPat this week - Nana is his own personal playtoy. He's just a ball of energy and smiles when she's around. On the flip side, he's anti-Mommy - I'm not allowed to do anything for him. He tells me to "Go Away! Mommy!". My Mom is not best pleased with his manners, and she is trying to make him work with me, but he's pretty darned stubborn and quick to cry. We all figure he'll be OK with Mommy again once he's not got Nana. I'm OK with that. :)

I haven't told my parents that I'm PG yet... I feel bad about it, and I'm thinking about it, but I want to know more about our chances at a take-home baby.

I was told pretty clearly after our loss that my parents didn't want us to try again. I think they are worried that I'll end up getting hurt badly, possibly die. I think there is also an undercurrent of thinking I wouldn't handle a 2nd kid well. Frankly, I'm not sure that part isn't partly true. I have a lot on my hands with just Jim. I'm not sure how we'd do it all if we ended up with 2, but I'm sure we'd figure it out, just like everyone else does. :)

WELL - I have my official test on Monday. Stacie made a guess on the beta # - anyone else wanna take a guess? Maybe I'll come up with some sort of prize for the closest? Stacie, you can re-guess if you want - narrow down your previous answer.