Friday, February 16, 2007

Anyone Got A Fork Handy???

Anyone got a fork handy??? I think I'm almost done....

- - - - - WARNING - - - - - PITTY PARTY BELOW - - - - -

I got the bad news tonight that Aunt Flow is here for a visit, she showed up today with her bags in hand. No warning, just showed up on my doorstep 3 days early.

I just want to crawl into bed and cry for a few days. I sure wish I could take the time for it. However, we have plans this weekend for every day but Sunday. I really don't feel up to being social... I know it will be good for me...

I just don't understand what is wrong... Why? Why can't we can't we have children?? What in world is the reasoning behind it? I just want to SCREEEEEEAM!!!!!!!

I don't think I have the gumption to do this... I think it is too much to ask that I get my heart broken every 28 days.

The reality is that I just feel beat down, overworked, stressed out, fat and getting fatter, under appreciated and I don't feel good about being me. I just wanna go home to Mom and have her make it all better, but I know I can't do that either.

I sure hope someone else finds that baby-dust fairy this month... Once you are done celebrating your joy, kick her in the ass for me, huh? Tell her I'm sick and tired of patiently waiting my turn only to have my heart broken into itty bitty bits.

Can one of you get me an extra-large box of Kleenex while you are out?? I've been going through too many lately to mess with these little square boxes.

My Mom always tells me, "Life isn't fair". Why the hell didn't she tell me the truth of it, "Life sucks".

Fucking Period - Fucking Crying - Fucking Shots - Fucking Heartbreak - Fucking Hate This!!!


Gil said...

Oh sweetie, that sucks. Oh flying hell does it ever suck. I am so sorry hon. *passes the industrial-sized box of tissues* Just when hope creeps in, damn ol' AF comes to ruin it for us. You're right. Sometimes we just need to go home to Mom and have her make it better, although we can't do that. No one person can make it all better. Stupid baby dust. Stupid hope. Stupid AF. *balls up fists* Makes you just want to punch something doesn't it? I wish you were close; I think a girls' night would definitely be necessary. I wish I could give you a hug. Virtual hugs will have to do. I'm so, so sorry Dawn. Remember that you CAN take a break, even if it is a little one. And we're all still here for you either way.

Heather said...

I'm so sorry Sweetie. It does suck. IF sucks. More than anyone who hasn't gone through it can understand.

Kristy said...

I was so heartbroken to read your post today... (((HUGS)))

Kris said...

Oh, you can't have a pity party without Cheetos and Beer. I'll bring 'em over, since I've stocked up for my own "Life Sucks" party.

I'm so sorry.

Baby Blues said...

I'll bring the "chocolates and wine". Anything to make you feel better Dawn. I'm so sorry. It does f$%#ing sucks! I'm screaming, throwing punches, doing tae-bo kicks with you.